Yeah...I Guess I'm Back...

I've decided for now that maybe it's time for me to come back. My brain is getting angry at the rest of me for not posting new things.

Oh, who am I kidding. It was a big step for me just to go to this page. I am pushing myself really, really hard right now to write anything down.

I feel like I owe you all an explanation of what exactly is going on with me. I'm having some emotional issues which began about a month ago and grew much worse last week. Looking back at my journal entries, I am able pinpoint just exactly when this all started-it's funny that I didn't realize what it was at first. I'm not a particularly observant person when it comes to myself. But I'm really, really good at picking up these kinds of things in other people. I pick changes in speech patterns and respond to body language in a way that I don't think a lot of people can. I wonder why that is. I just love listening to people, I guess.

You have no idea how weird it is to be back here. Well, maybe you do. Maybe you can read into all the reluctance and the caution and the lack of motivation that I think is taking a leisurely stroll through my brain right now. Actually, that is happening all the time now. I just don't want to do anything.

People keep reading this and telling me it makes them sad. And I'm sorry that you're sad and everything, but please please please don't tell me of all people. I don't want to sound mean right now, so I am going to leave it at that. Ugh, but there are so many things I want to say about this.