Everything is resurfacing. My problem is that I am writing about all of these issues instead of vocalizing them. I need to actually talk to someone. I think that would get all of these bad thoughts out of my head and I wouldn't feel like I need to throw up all the time. Right now my head feels like it's about to explode with everything that I am thinking.
I really want to cry about it. There's this weird little catch in my throat that feels like I'm in the middle of a sob, but I can't actually cry. Maybe it's because I'm not talking enough. I haven't had a legitimate, meaningful conversation with someone since who knows when and that makes me sad.
You know what I need? I need someone who would let me talk and cry and just say "Mhm?" and "Go on," and "And how do you feel about that?"
I don't even know what's going on right now. But I'm really angry at myself, and that's probably unwarranted. Maybe not, I don't know. I don't have a clue about anything anymore.
Sorry guys. I'm trying to get this all out in any way I can.
Mhm...go on.....how do you feel about that?
ReplyDeleteBig Funny Kid HATES it when I probe him with such questioning but he is a boy.
Don't despair. There are SEVERAL people in your corner that will help you "get this all out".
Seriously.
Start here. What you are feeling right now, what brought this on?
ReplyDeleteLet it out then. You have plenty of friends who want to hear your problems. I'm about to go to SC so we can talk there.
ReplyDeleteI'm always here to listen. I'm better at listening than talking for sure. You don't have to keep everything inside and do everything yourself. Sometimes you gotta let someone help you, and that's where friends come in. Love you hon.
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